Abbi's Dream

Jesus loves the little children of the world.  He is not a God who is reserved for adults who can intellectually converse about the finer points of Christianity.  He is a God who welcomes children into his arms.  He's their protector.  He's their Father.  He desires that they know Him.

I believe last night God had in mind to show Abbi how important she was to him.  He wanted to speak loudly to her.  He wanted to make himself known to her. 

Abbi had a dream! 

In her dream she was walking into Family Video to get a movie.  Behind her was a toddler girl wearing a white knitted winter hat and a white coat.  Abbi turned to this little girl and picked her up and said, "Sarah, which American Girl Movie do you want to watch?"

And the dream was over. 

Abbi tried to recall her face but she only remembers she was fair skinned but with some type of ethnicity that she couldn't name. 

What a fun morning the two of us had!  I should mention that Abbi is very insistent that God is telling us to adopt.  As a matter of fact she thinks we should adopt a girl from Boston.  No joke.  It's what she's been saying for weeks.

Anyone who knows Abbi knows that she is very driven.  When she gets an idea in her head....watch out!  So since Day 1 of our fast she has asked the question, "Do you think God is telling us to adopt?"  I remember looking at Stacy and thinking, "Oh gosh, this is going to be a LONG 3 weeks!"

In case you need reminding, Stacy and I have been totally content being the four of us.  Totally content to walk into the next phase of our lives.

But how ironic that the little girl in the dream was named Sarah.  The first thing that came to my mind when Abbi told me her name was the picture of Sarah in the Bible who was listening (eavesdropping) while the LORD told Abraham:

"I will surely return to you about this time next year, and Sarah your wife will have a son."
 

What did Sarah do?  She laughed to herself as she thought:

"After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure?" (They were already old and well advanced in years and Sarah was past the age of childbearing.)
 

I love the next part:

"Then the LORD said to Abraham, "Why did Sarah laugh and say, "Will I really have a child now that I am old?  Is anything too hard for the LORD?  I will return to you at the appointed time next year and Sarah will have a son." But Sarah was afraid, so she lied and said, "I did not laugh."But he said, "Yes, you did laugh."  (Genesis 18:10-15)
 

I titled a blog "The Laugh Could be On Us" yesterday.  I'm not sure that it was prophetic, but I do think it's funny.  It's almost so funny to me that I could laugh out loud.   But I won't.

Tonight as I write this and meditate on this passage I'm struck by the fact that Sarah was afraid.  Was she afraid because she got caught laughing?  Or was she afraid because the dream she had her whole life to be the mom of a son was going to come true?  How many years did she want to be a mom?  How many months passed and her menstrual cycle testified that she would never be a mom? 

I know infertility.  I can identify.  And yet God says, "Is anything too hard for the LORD?" 

I don't know if you want a baby.  I don't know if you have longed for something that has never come to pass.  But I want to encourage you.  Nothing is too hard for God. 

And tonight I apply that truth to myself.  God can give me energy and all that I need should one day I have a daughter named Sarah.

Candie